Y.A.N.T.O

birthday,death and newborn

2009-05-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

Today i write about sadness and the happiness during my 17th birthday.
a friend mom passed away today.nat stay strong and insyallah god will help you.
my mate fahmy, his wife just gave birth to a baby girl.

i can't imagine my 17th birthday was full of sadness.

this is fate.

and i have to accept it.

"girl i was waiting for your msg to wish me,but you did'nt.
i don blame you for not messaging me.
i'll accept it that you have forgotten me".

hais.

Happy birthday Yan
:(

when i was at block 171

2009-05-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

Last week when meeting my Dude at 160++ I pass through 171 and sat for a while.
at the Old BBQ pit where i first meet her.
that place remind me of the memories i had with her.
The best day of my life.
The first time i meet and talk to her.Her mates were celebrating her birthday.
i was feeling so anxious yet scared.
I wear perfume comb my hair nicely.wear cool shirt just to meet her.

she was not pretty but she is really sweet.
mates thought we are already together but actually not.
her friends begin taking picture of us both together.

Those happy time.

how i wish it never ends.

but time flies.

she changed now.

different from before different at the heart.

waited for almost two year.and i don even know if im still waiting.

Now i been trying very hard to keep all those old memories away but sometime it just keep rewind at my head.

trying to pretend every single day that she does not even exist.
:(

Old happy memories bring the future of darkness.

the sadness.the pain of past and the unwanted.

2009-04-20T21:24:00.003+08:00

The happiness you bring when you came.
The hope you given me when you came back.
The joy of future i really hope for.

the waiting of my Birthday to spend it with you i always wanted.

but in a moment of flash.

You left again.

No words

No goodbye.

just a simple message.

the feeling of Love,care and joy just gone.

False hope,revenge and sadness is all i think now.

brother,gossip,back stab,bitches and arse.

2009-04-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

Friends????
what does they really mean uh??
can they be trusted??
or are they just pile of shit???

i fcuking don know sia.

you swear you didnt

she swear you did.

who the Fuck sia Speaking the truth.

who knows?
not even me.

only god knows.

you lie.she lie.i lie.

haiyoo.

whatever shits happen.happen.

another Fucked up Shit.

Freeloader.

my house hotel uh?
can come anytime and any fucking shit you want uh?

my ciggies you got share uh?

fucker!

go kiss your mum arse lah fucker.

haiyoo

2/5=bitch&bastard.

take care luh mother fcuker.
=)

one Fucking fine Day im just gonna act like a gentleman and speak to you.
and fucked you both up and tell you what is friends.
pffffffffffftttt!!!!
motherfucker!

Fishing and memancing

2009-03-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

haahahahaha.
Hols have been really bored.
3weeks and i don't even know what to Do.
sleep,slack,sleep,eat,drink,fishing,slack and Etc.

today activities were fishing with my Family at tanah merah.
what do we get?
NOTHING
hahaahaha
basically fishing is about luck.
sometimes there fish sometime no.
hahahahaha

Today shocking News:
never believe you could talk behind my back after 4fcuking bloody years
of friendship.
but then i know you just human being and tend to make mistake.
i thought you change asshole.
but then you never.
i stand by you like my own brother but you treat me like a vermin.
thanks dude.
how i wish i could punch and kick your fcuking face one more time.
those fcuking two timer face you shown me have finally been uncovered.
its time dude for you to face the music in your face.
Friday will be the day.
the balance between a pretender and a liar.

Berdanska di Mosaic

2009-03-19T18:27:00.004+08:00

Its been long since i write on my blog.
i been so busy with schoolworks and presentation plus
a resume and a cover letter to hand in.

But
on the 18th march i decided to take a break.
hahahahaha
Me,nas,Saifullah and wawan.
go to the Mosaic festival in Esplanade.
hahahahahaha
Skank,skank and Skank.

band peform were Copy Machine
and our very own The sally's

here some Pictures.

hakiki cinta

2009-03-05T00:12:00.002+08:00

There no word or phrase i can say when i wrote those message.
it feels terrible.
this timid heart of mine is shattered.
i can't leave you but fate made me leave you.
aku hanya terlepas darimu.

no person nor being can understand the pain i'm suffering.
only allah does.
brethren,lackeys and hommies.
they won understand how i feel.
but You always been there for me.
thanks for filling those empty spaces in my heart.
when yana gone you came and support me.
with those smiles and happiness you bring.
i'll make you the best thing in my life.
but now you are gone.

Selalu Miss U

2009-03-03T23:02:00.003+08:00

okok long time never write...
shit2 i'm so shagged man.
Ok life have been Plain Boring.
biasa lah Bintang purnama da hilangkan diri kan.
tak akan menjelma lagik uh!
okok
yan kau sungguh cock!!!!

Engak bisa aku menunggumu lagik Bintang.
kerna dirimu sudah dimiliki....

how i wish i had insomia and forget about her.
my memories
the moment of tears and happiness.

but then impossible right?
you have a twisted heart that even i myself can't predict.
maybe its time for me to let you go.
let you stand on your own two feet.
i know now that you're fine.
you don't need me anymore.
i'm fine with that.
forget me anyway because i'm trying my best to forget you.
take care luh kawan.
kawan??
ask me and i say out of couple of friends i have.
only a few remember me.
Life is like this huh.
people will keep forgetting people.
you come to me with tears.
i bring you back to this cruel world with happiness.
and now you leave with leaving the tears with me.
hoping everytime that i'll always stand a chance for you.
that fading hope.
i know its impossible.
thanks bintang purnama for making me realised that you are just temporary.
and not for eternity.
thanks and goodbye.
i wanna to forget you for good.
because i love you.
and hurting myself to love you.
:(
:(
:(
im cutting on ciggies already.
4stick today.

last day of Hoping,a new lease of life.

2009-02-23T22:14:00.002+08:00

Last day of hoping,a new lease of life.
Now i can really move on with a clear mind.
where everybody is happy and im satisfied with what i have.
i choose to let my hope go.not because of disloyalty or found someone new..
but because i know in life i cant have everything i want.
the girl that i love.
she is only temporary and not forever.
let others love her,who knows that other person may bring her better happiness than me.
i cant wait for boiled seed to grow.
i know its impossible.
and i know where i stand.
Let god decide my fate.
and just redha.
thanks for the happiness you brought me.
thanks for everything.
A new lease of life.
:0)

weekends turn weekmare

2009-02-22T23:46:00.002+08:00

My weekends was full of tragedies and sadness.
people around me are suffering.
saturday 21st febuary.
Mom received a phone call from Wak wan.
my cousin sufree try to commit suicide by overdosing 20 panadol pill.
/reason?>kak lina ask for divorce!.
why?sufree is now penniless.
why are there evil people in this world.
abang sufree was in the ward and kak lina came and ask for divorce.
Poor cousin of mine.he cry and cry.
the sadness in the room can be seen.
Mom was trying her best comfort him.
He told Mom that Kak lina was his world.
Mom scolded him for loving kak lina more than himself.
Mom say"You should love yourself first before loving others.
He got the guts to kill himself.
Is he ready to face the Almighty?
is his good deed enough for him to answer to the Angel of Death?
the wrongs he done to other people have he atone his sins?
abg sufree was the oldest in our cousin of all.
but out of Stress and depressed he try to take his own live.
how foolish can Man be?
There always a Way out in every problem right?
Why do evil people Happy while the good one suffer in this world?
because after Death the good one will find everlasting happiness and the evil one will
suffer in Hell.
This is Life.
Humans always suffer.
whenever i think i suffer badly there always someone else who suffer worse than me.
Patience,prayer and Doa is the key to survive.
:)

Genocide

2009-02-20T00:31:00.005+08:00

i was so bored that i go into youtube to look at videos.
and found this gruesome yet sad videos of of Genocide happen in Myanmar when the Khmer Rouge overthrown the government in 1975.
Brace yourself for this Video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BZ6dB0lw8Fg

In God i believe.

2009-02-16T19:40:00.001+08:00

Today was a new lease of life for me.
i got to school with a sleepy eyes.
damn.play game until forget tomorrow school!
hahahaha.what i learn today?
basically Nothing!
hahahaha
tapi takpe.
tomorrow lagik worst!
hahahha
until 4.30pm seh.
rabak pe.
what to do must Tahan.
dan Wayang!
hahahaha.

I learn a lot for the past few weeks in the darkest day of life.
But Still I'm standing tall going on with Life.
What happen really make me cherish my life and people around me even more.
but today i feel Kopi-O
and here a lyrics of song by the Sally's
My Love:

The blue clouds, they spell out your name
The darkest nights, you shine in them
I love you & I can imagine
I f you're not here with me

It's early days but I know for sure
That what I feel is real sincere
Let's make this, the best time of our lifes
Be my better half

I'll give you my world
I'll treat you nice
Cos for my love
I'll sacrifice

Anything I could
Everything I would

Chorus

My love
You're everything I could ask for
Your smile makes me happy
Your tears makes me sad
And I know for sure
This is the best feeling I ever had

Your love
Brighten my dimmest light
Make my heart beat faster than before
As days pass I'm gonna love you more
I promise

Bridge

I wanna say something to you
There's no one else that swept me off my feet like the way you do
And all I want is you
I promise that our love would shine if you let me with you

(Chorus)

favourite worst nightmare.

2009-02-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

Now i know what is worst.
After Conclusion i found out that my problem of Love is just
nothing compare to what others have face.

today at 4.20pm in woodland mart MacDonald.
I talk to hafiz one of our rider.
i share my problem with him.
And guess what he say?
"Bro kau punya problem tak ade pape uh."
"aku rasa lebih teruk daripada kau.

his story:

he used to have a relationship with a girl for 4 wonderful years.
and you know what!!
after entering NS.
the girl behavior change.
and on the unfaithful day of may 2007.
the girl got engagement with another guy.
he only know about this on dec 2007.
he told me:"yan aku boleh jadi giler sak"
aku baru nak tunang nan dia sak!
i heard his story and few others from the other riders.
their situation was far more worse than mine.
mine is really nothing.

and Azhar say:"bro kau lagi jauh seh!!!chill uh.."
even if you sad.the girl won know.
who might know she happy with other guy?

theres far more Sad story i heard than what i experienced.
this is Life Yan.

Motivation passed.
i'm happy today!

a Perfect lies

2009-02-15T01:34:00.004+08:00

the perfect lies you told me.
the perfect lies i believe it.
thanks you and i really appreciate it.
a dream that never come true and only fantasies.

Let God decide.
Let my heart Go.
free me from your word.
let me fly with the wind.

And i promise to mama that I'll stand up and face god wrath.
change for myself and my life.

success in this world is not TRUE SUCCESS

Failure in this world is not TRUE FAILURE

Don't believe the truth.

2009-02-12T14:11:00.000+08:00

Why do something tomorrow, when it could be done the day after tomorrow?

There is always tomorrow.

When in doubt do nothing.

Its better to have loafed and lost than never to have loafed at all.

What is liberty? Leisure.

Happiness depends on Leisure.

Workers can't think.

If you are losing your leisure, you may be losing your soul.

He who loafs last loafs longest.

Imagination is more important than knowledge.

All the evil people in the world are already busy.

To idle people every day is a festival.

You cannot think and work at the same time.

Children ought to be idle -- it's good for them.

Thinkers don't work and workers don't think

Stop dreaming

2009-02-11T22:51:00.004+08:00

Test of Life.
another hard one god give me.
NO way am i gonna fall!
thanks god he give test of life because
all the hardship and suffering i been through
one day for sure I'm gonna be a better person.
motivation for me.

Old Love.
thanks for leaving me.
i realized now that after you left me i learn a lot about life.
thanks.

mouse:
you are the pillar of strength.
thanks for being there for me.
I'm sad that you think I'm the same like all other guy.
but i know myself to well.
i learn about life more than you.

Egokah aku?mencintaimu?

From today onwards.
I'm not gonna be weak.
I'll not give up on life.
i'll never give up on love.
there always someone better in life.
till then.

today fail my target.
Target:5sticks
Today:12sticks
reason:stress and sad.

when the time is right.

2009-02-09T19:45:00.002+08:00

I'm bored,sad,despair,irritated,down,angry,disappointed and etc.
reason?Her.
its always the same reason whenever my days went bad.
sitting at home waiting to be rotten.
i know i should not waste my time doing something not important but
what can i do?
my life is really loathsome.
boring life i had ever since she left.
i know life is one.
must cherish it.
fulfill my wish.
make my dream come true.
hahahaha!

i miss her.
i really do.

i shall pass this world once,every good moment i'll cherish it because
i shall never pass this world again.

And Today i feel Bad.

2009-02-06T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today all of sudden i feel bad.
Why?
i don't even know why...
I miss yana so much..
i really miss her a lot.sometimes i wonder if does she even think of me?
I'm here drowning myself with sorrow and maybe she there happy with
another great guy who is more Clever, more Mature, more intelligent than me.
i know I'm just a rascal in the street, only following the rhythm of life.
but every human make mistake.my mistake may be to big for her to forgive me but
Yana Karma is really punishing me and i got what i deserve but Why in the Hell can't i
forget you??
why??
why You?
I feel really sucks Today.
because i Miss you.

the memories with you was a blast.
but the pain when you left left me dying.
the time of my life i spend with though
thick and thin,ups and down and happiness and sadness.
I'll cherish that memories for the rest of my life.

Nur liyana binte Abdul rahim, I realize my mistake.
But i know its to late to make it up to you.
but I wanna tell you I still Love you eversince we meet at 4th july 2007 before your birthday at block 171.
when i gave you the present for our first meeting and i held that hand of yours.

Cintamu membunuhku.

with all my will
i try to move on
we separated and move one.
i go east you go west
You left me boundaries of pain
Capacious as the sea,
Between eternity and time,
Your consciousness and me.

start of the day.

2009-02-04T00:14:00.002+08:00

today was the start of a new day.
hahahaha
blajar2,main2,goncang2 dan etc.
hahahaha
practical was fun.
i learn alot of new things.
studying is not bad after all huh??
let see how far can i go!

today was mcm semalam!!!
haahaha.

at maths class disturb bloody aloysious.
pinch his nipple and make him "feel of fear"
hahahaha.
go back at 4.30pm.

at 6.30pm.
meet shirah.
chill doggies jap.
theb go library to study..
meet up nas and acap.
hahahaha
blajar seh yan.
maut eh
start pukul 7 sampai 9

maut eh??
hahahaha
then go causeway.
eat at long john silver.
hahahaha
talk2 with acap...
then at 11pm go back...
haahahaha

bored uh my life???

Tahan and Wayang.

2009-02-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

Tahan,tahan and tahan i must.

Damn My course damn Bored Lah sey...
but i must tahan and wayang....
I know i must prove to the people around me that i deserve respect.
I must make it to Polytechnic.
I have,must and kena Study.
bbbbbuuuuutttt Its easier say than done.
Need a good start.

Like she say there no difference between express and Normal academic.
yes she got short way to polytechnic but Me i got better gift by god.
he give me the gift of hardship in Ite.
i know my future is in my hand.
its whether i want or don't want.
i will succeed and i will..
when there a will there a way.
practice make permanent.
must tahan,tahan, and tahan.

i will prove to her and all those who look down on me.
human being start from bad to become good
nobody start from being good.

timid

2009-02-01T23:14:00.006+08:00

Not Bad old Love.
you really go to Singapore polytechnic.

I'm proud of you.I'm happy for you.
but inside this timid heart.
I'm sad and terribly sad.
remembering those happy memories i had with you.
the pain and love we enjoy together.
the laughter and the sadness.
the day we cry together on the phone.
the moment of happiness when you say the three word.
the day when i know what love is all about.
good luck on your life Old Love.
you have been the best.
the best love i ever had in my 17years in life.

and now still you are in this timid heart of mine.
from the day i found you till the day you left me.

Under the spell you cast
Each moment was a blast
Now happy times have past
Our memories will always last

Now you are gone
I must carry on
Only by being strong
Alone after so long

With each new day
I try to find a way
To keep on living
In a world unforgiving

040707-160108

lifeless day.

2009-01-29T23:34:00.002+08:00

Life is indeed hard.
i can't imagine if my life would be screw up..
Now at the age of 17 i know my future is indeed important.
due to the booming economy.its hard to make a living if you are holding
just an N level Certificate.but to be success is not easy either.
i wonder what gonna happen to me when I'm 20+ and start to face the real world.
the working life.
Am i gonna be:

Successful?

Or

Unsuccessful?

frightening huh?

but i know i have to face it.
But When can i turn the tides?
when the Wind always blows toward me?

that the story for today.

today is like a lifeless day seh!!
go back lepak2
then at 10.30pm

go back sleep.
boring yah my life??

wonder when can it be interesting...

Can i have a life where everyday that are thrilling?
a life where every single day a girl call me?
a life where life is always wonderful?
a life where i'm blinded to see the negative side of life?
can i?

Karma.

2009-01-27T23:31:00.001+08:00

Karma.

I always believe in it.
what goes around comes around.
every bad thing i do there always a retribution.
i admit i done many wrong things in the past.
and Karma have come to me now.
I'm not happy with my life now.
there more to the Down than the Up.
money???give me temporary happiness.
but it will soon expired.
the past deep shit i got into.
Now it appeared to give the Shit back to me.
the person i hurt.
Now another human being come and hurt me.
Karma is indeed cruel.
But I know i deserve it.
What can i do..
this is what god promise us.
every good or bad things we do there always a payback into it.

I felt lonely in life now.
there something missing in my heart.
i need to find peace.
And i need to start now but can i?

i do smile,jokes and laugh when i meet my mates.
but deep inside this empty heart i feel restless.
maybe i deserve it because its Karma.

The Universal emotion

2009-01-25T07:14:00.000+08:00

Heart Or Hati.

Feelings can really change for a short period of time.
Seconds,minute,hours,days,week or even years.
but I didn't think that you could change your heart within Days.
Yeah everybody have their moment of foolishness.
things we do not want to do but accidentally do it.
but things already happen.the damage have been done.
And people are suffering.
Congratulation my friend you put yourself into deep shit.
congrats.

the same old shit I've done to my previous love.
How stupid to let go the perfect girl in your life when she can
really motivate you
love you
be crazy with you
monkeying around together.

isn't she perfect??
i here envious about you getting the perfect girl in life
you there throw away that hard come by chance.
How i wish i was the one who get her.
i would cherish her like a diamond.
there no use to regret.
you have to wake up and face the cruelty of this world.
This is Life.

the darkest day of a friend life.

"Don't walk in front of me,
I may not follow;
Don't walk behind me,
I may not lead;
Walk beside me,
and just be my friend."

copyright

A friend that is unique
A friend that is one of a kind
A friend that is perfect
A type friend who is hard to find
A friend that is sweet
A friend that is perpetually fair
A friend that you know
Will always be there
A friend with an amazing spirit
A friend with a striking heart
A friend that is trustworthy
A friend that is smart
A friend that assuages your pain
A friend that can dry your tears
A friend with unrestricted love
A friend that can alleviate your fears
A friend with an exquisite smile
That could never be ignored
A friend that’s never been hurtful
A friend that is easily adored
A friend that is respectful
A friend who is loved by all
A friend that is relied upon
A friend to never let fall
A friend you can talk to
Her compassion is known by a glistening glow
Just by sparking her remarkable light
The whole world will know
What a great and amazing person she is
A friend I shall never forget
She is the greatest ever been known
Best of all the friends I’ve ever met…

Marria Attar

Workout,Love and First sight

2009-01-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

its been quite long i didn't touch my computer...
wah sian leh...I'm so busy with school and personal workout.
as you can see i'm been trying to lose weight back.
shiit!!

okok lets talk about today(as per normal my english will be Koyak)
today school like yesterday same thing all over again.
go back at 3.45pm.meet up my old mate Eka.
i slack with her and nas until 6+++

Shocking news...
shirah grandfather just pass away.
condolence to her.
poor shirah she must be feeling really down.

At 7

Yana call me ajak lepak!!
hahaha
Rindu seh yana..
hahaha
meet her and shikin in Teh tarik and lepak for awhile before
proceeding to the Bbq pit near my house...
When suddenly!!

syanazd come and she was crying..
bring her oneside.(gedebak-gedebuk)

then go 307 when suddenly(this part interesting)
i saw Wawan and this Damn Super Duper Hyper
cute Cuttie Girl...
Awww
Cair...

Her name was khairiani
age 18
schooling in Ngee Ann Poly.

when suddenly
Love at the first sight
the way she talk.
her English was so good.
her behaviour was so lady-like
and her hand were so soft..
awww!!

Damn i Really admire her especially
when she talk to us.damn those word were so
smooth.
her tone was so sweet...
yan in love sick!!!
wan told me about her sad love story.
she deserve better guy than her ex-boyfriend.
:0
but i'll never get her number because
i'm not her stand.

between she And me?

Beauty And The Beast.
hais

maybe tomorrow i could forget her??
:)

Islam,Gaza and innocent

2009-01-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

If Only world were peace.
poor palestine poeple.
the civilian that was killed.
they were innocent but was killed by Israel defence force.
look into this video and you will know the people of palestine
how they suffer.
thank gods that i was born in singapore.
see the video and pray for them.
god bless them.

dreams,patience and truth

2009-01-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

Dreams,Patience and truth.

the word that i learn from my Life skill lesson.

true,inspiration can bring you success.
they bring dream come true.
but effort and sacrifices are needed.
although we human tend to forget things.

timetables and schedule can help us keep
track of things.to be successful is not that simple.
determination and sacrifices are needed.
love and friendship.
they can be a barrier of your way or
they can be the light.
it only depend on you whether u make the
right choice.every failure there a lesson for us
to learn.after learning it we make it into success.
determination,success,sacrifice,courage,positive
-thinking and prioritise.

quote:
if the dream is big enough,the fact don't count.

love dedication.

2009-01-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

LOVE Dedication.

although 2years have passed..
there still someone i could'nt forgot
her sacrifices and love for me.
although we are through
how i wish i could turn back time...
and cherish you like how you cherish me.
how i wish that every year on the 18th may
you would wish me a birthday wish.
telling me not to give up whenever i fall
and always be my pillar of support.
But all those wish are just dreams that will never come true.

your face they bring smile.
your smile they bring happiness
and they happiness you given me
when we were together i'll
not forget until the day i died.

i'm sorry for what i done.
i'sorry for the pain i cause you.
the pain you have to go through when you are
with me...

maybe you have forgotten me but
i'll never forget you.
In life i'll make you as my role model.

ocean waves
wash my soul
cleanse me of your smile

and the memory of
ten fingers
entwined forever
in a hopeless wish.

If love is a pain why do we keep falling in love.
a universal emotion that one can never understand.

040707-160108
entitle./yan dan si Dia

lesson,jokes and future plans.

2009-01-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

Future Plan!

Electronic is not easy as we thought huh...

Got Physic siah!!

my class were great but not as great as my 4n2..

there this guy name alyoisis....\
damn he sooo crazy or a freako!!!

doing stupid things to embarassed himself...
what the hell..
sometime he is funny but there time that i really pity him alot seh.

ok about my class
there were only 5malay boys..
afrio,shakir,safa,nas and me...

sikit eh!!
tk boleh ajak rompak!!
hahaha

future Plans:
slim down back(da mcm babi sak aku)
make it far in life:how far i don know!
Nikon camera!
get married!!
get Into Polytechnic if cannot polyclinic can luh..
hahaha
get into marine offshore engineering..
and most importantly Be happy.

mendak lah today!!
:(

Hapiness,craziness and the Ups and Down.

2009-01-10T00:13:00.000+08:00

Today was indeed one of the best day i ever had..
meet up with my Ex-fuchun mates and we chill out at
Al-ameen restaurant..
mates like:shirah,Haiqal,Didi,mir,mahira,Razul,Al,anwar,
wan and to forget Munky Micks!!!
hahahaahaha
:)
kekek siah dia...
buat Orang ketawa jek..
boleh mati sak aku tadi ketawa..
after eat we lepak with fahmy and the
others in 322...

memorable sak...
ketawa2,kacau orng dan memberi nasihat kepada rakan2ku...
haiyoo

we plan to meet up every Friday...
hopefully it works eh!!
hahahaha
:)

5th day ceret-beret ini...
bujang:21st may until now.
hahaha.

Mates of past and present

2009-01-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

Friends of 4N2.
you guys have been the greatest friends of All.
the laughter,the pain,the stress and even the sad and happy moment.
the moment where i'll never forget until the day i die.
the day when i'm sad you guys make me laugh.
you laugh at my stupid and craziest jokes.
the day we disturb relief teacher until they to scared to take our class.
the day we study.
friends of 4n2 i hope you guys does not forget me.
razul Bell-you have been the greatest kekek brother i have.

Nas-i treat you like my younger bro cause you are so Belo.4 years together.

isa-the smartest guy among the malay

Al-lame jokes but supportive.

faz-quiet and rilek

Sul-childhood fren but now you no where to be found.

Chinese dude-you all rock my butt.
you all know my behaviour and still befriend with me.thanks.

Shirah-irritating.attention seeker but seriously you are the best girl-friends i can find.

Aqila-quiet but sometime can be quiet fun.

Wanie-the speaker of 4n2.you rock my butt.

Fadhilah-small and timid,but your mouth Boleh tahan eh.
one of my pillar if i fall.

Liyana-my beestest friend.eternity ok babe??

xian ying-the ah jie of 4n2!

the girls of 4n2 you to been the best dudettes.

Mdm marjubee-you been supportive to me.
through my Ups and Down you been there
thanks Teacher.

Mdm siti-the teenage teacher who understand teens like me.
thanks for calling me Mature.
hahaha.

Miss thia-my sec 1 and 2 gp.the small teacher who saw me grown from
a young boy to a mature man.
thanks teacher.

and lastly my 4n1 kaki gerek!
acapp-my brother for 4years.
the jokes,the pain and the happiness.

afif-although i use to hate you.you are still a friend to me.

Sakinah-hee.my last time crush.you rock my pantat

Mahira-my primary school rakan.you will not be forgotten.

salih,mir dan yg lain2-korg pun gerek.
tahu peragai aku yang jahat tapi tetap
kawan dgn aku.Thanks.

new friends and bro i'll meet soon.
till here
Bye.
:)

school,dreams and suffering

2009-01-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

And today at 8.30am i go into a new life...
Ite yishun.
the feeling:
Scared.
Bored.
excited??
Happy.

hahaha
assemble at the Multi purpose hall and sit in my class.
I got into EC1C
poor nas tkde nama in all three class.
hahaaha
i made some new friends.
Akmal from bukit View sec
a guy from evergreen sec
a Laki from fajar sec.
hahaha

frist day orientation merepek lah..
main Ice breaker.
introduce myself and etc.
then we play Blow Wind Blow.
blow job kan best!
hahaha.

got into my new class.
Got air con lah sey..
So fuchun student yg naik sec 5 bukan korg jek eh ade aircon aku pun lah..
hahaahhha
My Class advisor known as Mr Choo.
he Look gerek but Who knows??
the beginning jek..

The good thing bout Ite eh.
lunch break 1hour.
boleh keluar isap rokok lagik!
hahaahah

the negative side!
Banyak MR(mat Rep)
Byk Keling(bukan racism eh)
skolah buruk!

hahaha

kawan2 wish me good luck ok!
hahahaa

my aim.
finish my course
go take motorcycle license next year.
go Into Ns as soon as i finish my EC course.
hopefully get into Marine offshore after my Ns.
get A job In Keppel Harbour!

To acheive sucess you need suffering.
and i have to suffer now.
Enjoy Life everyday.
You don need money to be happy.

schoolboys,nightclubs and puppylove

2009-01-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow school lah people...
new life.
new friends
new enemy
a new test in life.
im ready babe..
how i wish i could go to a nighclub and enjoy myself..
dancing,girls,devil,drugs,smoke and the angel of death...
but i want to go in and experience myself..
yeah i think i should forget about her..
let god find my rightful partner...
damn i miss her siah...
hais

to think that i could be jealous of her..
damn Nur liyana binte rahim if only i did not hurt you
life would still be the way i would always imagine...
and Liyana ariffin...
you are a great friend.
my dearest friend.
until i fall in love with you.
i wish to forget you.
i want you to become my best friend for eternity...

Fuchun.
stupid school but my mates there they were fantastic...
Razul,AL,ISA,NAS,FADHILAH,SHIRAH,AQILAH,HAMDAN,WANIE,
SULHANDI,ATAN AND THE OTHERS.

although i do not want to be seperated with you guys but this is life.
I have To Move On...
bye
good morning ITE
good night Fuchun secondary..

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year Friends And Mates...
New Year EVE was full of Downs than the ups...
hahahahahaha
first i bang a big pillar in marina square
then nearly fall in Plaza singapura
after that kena screen by the police and all my rokok kena throw siah..
but the best thing was going clarke quay and joget!!!
haahaha
damn it was fun siah....
first time i see Mahira dance lah sey.,...
it was really like clubbing seh...
good for me i did'nt drink or take pills...
hahaha
new year right new resolutions...
my new year wish:
to be a good boy!
to be loved and love someone.
i want to be rich.
to be sucessful
To forget Nur liyana bte abdul rahim but i cannot.
to get the other one.
pass all my exam
get a motor..
hahahahahahaha

Dikalau bulan Bermain Bola

my dirty little secret

2008-12-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

suddenly when lepaking with yana i felt sometihng not right...
why am i always looking at her eyes??
why does my heart keep beating fast when meeting her??/

i thought i got through her already..??
but what the hell its just a wishful thinking of mine...
i WILL never Ever Get Her...
sheee too pretty to be Mine....
yana2 nape byk2 orng kau aku suka...
haiss...
a secret from her i tell to my fellow bloggers...
damn man in my heart i really like her..
funny huh that u love your own best friend...
of course i was disturbed by her cousin and friends but what the Hell..
you need 2 person to be together not one....
yana oh yana..
if kau cacat aku pilih kau.
walaopun satu mata aku pilih kau.
jikalau hidung tkde aku tetap pilih kau...
walaupun kau kurus atau mok aku tetap pilih kau.
hahahaha...
phrase siot.

when the moon disappear the star came to bring light.

2008-12-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

hello blog...its been long since aku write eh(mcm biase english become singlish)
hahahahahaha
today kerja gerek siot!!!!
byk makciks dan auntie....ok yan kau lame...
pergi lah kerja dari 9am sampai lah 3pm
gedabak gedebuk....
balik lah baba ajak gi umah cik sal....
penat uh babe tkyah lah..
lain hari ok??
hahahaha
basically todae mendak tk kuar...
:(
but tadi lepak gerek....
hahaha
jumpa brother lama siot!!
Fahmy Goblin lah sey!!!
maut kape....
rindu sial dia....
hahaaha

ok lah
i'm preparirng for a new set of life....
ITE life.....
Blajar tinggi2 yan...
mama nak tgk yan pegang ijazah or ijajah
hahaha
itulah mama ckp...

insyallah tak influence dgn syaitan2 dunia kat sane jek lah...
ok itu saje aku mampu.
bye and take caring
:)

2008-12-24T14:54:00.000+08:00

yeah!
yesterday go yishun ite..
i decided to take an MQT...
hahahaha
i Pass it with flying warna...
yeha!!!then go peninsula with nas...
beli seluar 3/4
selepas itu pergi lah ke Town.(orchard)
meetup with sul then we go lepak2...
hahaaha(english rabak eh)
wah piang leh...
hahaha
Town uh dat day many pretty chibou leh....
ang moh,ah lian,minah,mat rep,chicks and many more...
got auntie and uncle somemore...
hahahaha
then we go far east Plaza..
eat at cahaya muslim restauraunt
sedap siah the food there
especially the hot plate rice leh.
after makan we go back lah...
full siah stomach...
at the mrt uh....
saw this pretty chick cantik lah sweey....
walao wear short pant and her face uh like indon siah...
hahahaha
dgn mencuci mata sekali ade mxg dari kawanku..
YaNa...
hahahaha
die mengajak saya lepak luh...
hahahaha
at first mcm tak nak...penat kan..
tapi ok luh lepak uh jab boring plak....
kite janji nak meet kat inspi..
hhaahahahaha
da nak sampai inspi...
ternampak pompan cantik duduk....
tgk dari jauh mcm yana...
tapi yana pakai spec...
zoom in lah sikit...
btuln lah yana...
lawa sey die pakai contact lense...
Jambu...
cair i..
hahahaha
shhh!
jumpa dia luh..
lepak2,ketawa2...
she realie lawa lah sey...
all of sudden my heart thumb2...
walao why eh...
then yana told me she want to meet Mdm siti....
i asked her to follow me go woodgrove beli asap...
then ngan walk2 mama call....
"yan kau nan sape?"
i say lah "yan ngan kawan lah"
mama say"kawan ke matair"
i say luh"kawan lah mama"
walao how she saw me seh...
after buying ciggaratte
go luh cosway meet mdm siti
da kurus seh GP sec 3 aku...
hahahaha
gi lah makan kat banquet..
aku tk luh makan...
yana nak blanje aku tolak!!
haha
after that i send yana home...
if only she know aku suka dia...
tapi tak pe lah
kawan pun boleh...
let god temukan jodohku..
=0)

2008-12-22T23:28:00.000+08:00

wah sian eh...just now i go chilling and slacking...
wah pian leh gerek lah seh...
hahaha
at 5pm kena lah amik si fadhilah binte bahhhhrrroooomm
biasa jugak dia itu...
kecian baru break nan lelaki bernama A***
dia nak membakaar-bakar gamba ex dia...
teman lah aku si pendek itu...
hahahaha
den we go vistaa ppaaarrrrkkkk
lepak2 and chill doggies..
wah Piang leh soooo the fast uh life....
sekelip mata da secondary sekelip lagik Ite...

walao wei
miss siah 4n2
rindu semua rakan2 aaku...

2008-12-22T11:44:00.000+08:00

i already apply for full time courses...
first choice i take is service skill under office...
hahahaha
yang lain2 tkyah lah nak bilang.
i also apply for traineeship in case tk dpt masok full time course kan...
biasa lah singaporean very KIASU...
everything must try...
hahahaha
tomorrow i will take my QMT at yishun baik uh!!!
hahaha
klao pass boleh lah hamba pergi ke Aerospace...
kuakuakua...
today im gonna meet fad,razul,shirah dan sewaaktu dengannya
hahahahaha
hope today gonna be super fun(=
later i"ll post again..

2008-12-18T18:47:00.000+08:00

yeah i did'nt make it to 5N next year...
haiss.....
i got 12points and a chance to repeat....
but no way am i gonna repeat my sec 4...
its a waste of time only....
streeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssssss
i don know what course to choose siah....
i don know where to go.....
ouh god please give me peace....
shit2...
regret but no use....
i don know where to go....
:(

2008-12-18T08:38:00.000+08:00

argggghhhhh...
Today is the D-Day.
damn..
i feel scared siah...
goosebump all over me...
shit2..
i feel regret but i know its to late now...
ouhh shit....
now its 8.42am...
the result gonna be at around 2pm...
i cannot sleeep or eat...
i cannot even write the blog properly....
ouh shit....
god give me peace pleasee!!

Early enlistement or study?????

my future i hope would not be upsidedown...
i'll repost again after my N Level result..
take care..

bulan oh bulan message lah saya ouh bulan...
rindu aku padamu.
hais :(

2008-12-17T23:39:00.000+08:00

Todae...
was different from any other day...
today was the day i felt my class-matessss were there...
today were the day where i enjoy myself to the fullest..
hahahahaha
thx mates for being there for me...
thanks...
a choice to choose...
go early enlistement or ITE after my N level...

thanks uh kak fati and wan brian gates for your advice...
they will come handful one day...
today i wait for someone to message me...
i wait for the moon to message me but no she did nt...
what the hell

ohh bulan dimanakah kamu malam menanti...
hai bulan...bintang menunggu...
hari demi hari aku menanti...
:)

i miss you dear.
040707

2008-12-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

yawwww!!!
18th december 2008 D-Day for me and my matess,rakan,friend,companion,comrade,kawan,teman and yang sama waktu dengannya...
huahua!!!

can't wait to meet ur asshole,asshit,butthead and the others....
hahahahahahahahaha

Pass or fail i will accept it wholeheartly...
hahahahahahahahaaha

and also yanaaa i miss you siah!!
hahahahaahahaha

itu saje hamba write hari ini..

bulan aku masih merindui kamu...
040707.

2008-12-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

ffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh!!!!
long time never write....
haha...
busy this few days due to work...
today was just as another day for me...
work,go back play comp and PSP...
haiyooo
maybe who knows tomorrow gonna be great???
N level result coming out!!!
i know where im going...
ITE of course...
i didnt even bother to study...
only fooling around
somehow i miss my class and the crazy friends...
disturbing teacher,go Detention room or even the Discipline mistress room..
hahahahaha
eat at the canteen...
the malay auntie who sell nasi lemak or mee rebus
or the other side where another malay auntie sell rice with different kind of dishes....
hahaha
Im Gonna Miss all that in fuchun secondary....
last but not least im gonna miss my first CRUSH!!!
hahahaahaha
tomorrow i will post who the person...
and yes i still remember the date 160108
she left me.

PSP

2008-12-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

I bought a new psp lah sey...my hard earned money....
WOW!!!!
hahahahahahaha
mcm biasa jugak life gini jugak sorang2...
hidop sorang mati pun sorang...
member2 dan bro2 semua hilang...
ape nak uat semua kerja cari duit mau GAJI!!!!
hahahahaha...
ok lah ini saja hamba mampu...
dimanakah kamu yana??
ku masih menunggu
011608

2008-11-22T19:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday outing was suppperrrbbb....
hahahahahaha
yeah makan macam babi sak kau yan2...
hahahaha
fishing and guess what????
i can do ollie lah g..
alemak maut sey yan da lehj jadi skater..
yesterday also i fight my own fear...
the SEA...
yeah east coast sea can be very unstable...
but i did it...
hahahaahaha

yana oh yana im still waiting for you baby...
haissssssssss
god give me patience.
rest my mind...
:(

every smile come a broken heart inside..
i need to move on..
i have to...

2008-11-18T13:14:00.000+08:00

she called me...haiss damn...
girl if only u know im suffering because of you...
if only i could turn back time....
if only i could cherish u..
if only time was long for me and you
if only i did not know you..
if only can never happen..

fcuk love.
my fcuking love.
do you know that every now and then i kept waiting for you...
i know what i did was wrong...
i threw away our last chance..
i make you suffer
i make you cry
i make your life hard...

yan you know what u are the worst guy on the face of the earth
and thanks god he give karma..
im suffering now...
what goes around comes around....
the fact shall never change...
NUR LIYANA BTE RAHIM
u still the key of my heart...
and i will keep waiting
eversince our first meeting
040707.
cause i'm the man who can't be moved..

2008-11-17T20:42:00.001+08:00

work2...tired siah when i can sit down and chill with my brader...
damn man damn life...so bored....i want to be happy...happiness was not easy to find as people think...ya hoh!!
btw congrate nas and shirah hahahaha
they are happily attached...
sul and ayda i hope u both are fine...
haiyooo
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
shiiiiiiiiiiittttttttt!!!!!!!!!!
yana oh yana aku menunggumu taw...
sudah brapa lama aku menunggumu....
040707 is always in my heart...ceh mcm paham siah yan...
love,love,love.....
konek bodoh!!!
ok aku nak work ok skrg...
nanti aku write lagik..
take brothers and sister...
yan da rilek dah..
bukan mat rep atau poser hanya seorng hamba tuhan yang maha esa...
:)

months have passed..

2008-11-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

damn...its been long since i post my blog...
jyeahhh life now ok for me...
N level FINISHHHH
hahaha superb eh...
life standard like same...
SINGLE MINGLE all the way jek..
hahahaha
but its ok ini semua takdir tuhan kan??
satu hari mesti ae jodoh..
just sit down and chill
today working was damn tired work 8hours damn straight...
nbcb can die siah but what to do...
duit punya pasal...
blog oh blog bile lah aku nak attach??
hahahaahahahaha
:)))

months have passed..

2008-11-15T23:53:00.001+08:00

Life are super duper Cool..

2008-04-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

HAiz Bored siarh SIngle...

what to do now??

Lyfe??

gerek??

Mendak??

hais

DOn Know

I Still Missing someone

hais

Tuesday ade Activation...hais...

mane lar tao Tuesday ni aku mati ke??

Yanto

THAT BLACK WIDOW

2008-04-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

BLACK WIDOW OH BLACK WIDOW ANOTHER VICTIM EU KILLED..

WHEN WILL EU STOP KILLING UR MATE??

IS IT THE WAY OF LIFE TO KILL???

OR UR JUST DESIRE FOR SOMETHING...

EU WRAPPED UR PREY WITH UR DEADLY WEB AND STRANGLED THEM TO DEATH..

black widow oh black widow...

please stop killing and rest in peace...

a quote from me yantostaarr

RILEK LAR BABE

2008-04-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

PHANATIC LAR INI ANJING RILEK DULU...

HAIZ...

DA LAR MENTAH..

MASIH ANAK JAGUNG

BELUM MASAK

NAK STEP POWER..

HAIS

SO WHAT KAU LANE NYE??

AKU YANTO RHU PUNYA ARH...

BODOH...

TKMU BESAR2KAN BAJU KAU LAR SIAL..

KLAO BAGUS SNGT SINI ARH ACTIVATE WOODLAND...

YANSIOW&YANTO WAITING...

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHA

BILA2 RHU

WALAOPON RHU TETAPI TAK PHANATIC...

BIAR GANGSTER ASAL RILEK...

JGN BOCAP MAU PHANATIC...

HIDOP DEGIL...

PERAGAI DEGIL...

HATI BAIK..

OTAK PANDAI...

PHM BUDAK ?

YANTOSTAARR

NO PAIN NO GAIN

2008-04-09T20:30:00.000+08:00

NO PAIN NO GAIN..

YUP PAIN ALL OVER MY BODY..

BRUISE,CRAMPS AND EVEN BLOOD...

IM OK..

I'LL CONTINUE TRAINING UNTIL I SUCEED..

PAIN,PAIN..

SACRIFICES AND LOSS..

I HAVE TO SACRIFICE MY TIME FOR MYSELF...

HAVE TO SPENT LESS TIME WITH THE FAMILY...

THE GIRL...

MUM SAY GIRL ARE A DISTRACTION IN UR SUCESS LYFE..

SPARRING ALL DAE TODAY...

BRUISE AND PAIN..

BUT I LEARN SOMETHING...

TO BE STRONG I NID PAIN...

AND PAIN IS THE BEGINNING OF A NEW BODY...

LETS WELCOME THE NEW ERA...

OF MY LIFE...

BILA2...

RHU ARH RHU...

YANTO.

BILA2..

2008-04-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

i CHANGE???

SORIE OK??

I NOE NOW I DON HAVE TIME TO TALK TO EU ON THE PHONE..

HAIS

NOT THAT I IGNORING EU BUT PREPARING FOR SOMETHING BIG TO HAPPEN...

as EU CAN SEE...AFTER EU LEFT LYFE CHANGES..

I HAVE TO CHANGE...

I LOVE EU YES I DO BUT NOW...

TIME CHANGES AND I NEED TO CATCH IT ...

SO UNDERSTAND ME..

SORIE IF IM NOW A GANGSTER...

BUT I HAVE TO BCOS PEOPLE CHANGES AND THOSE AROUND ME CHANGE..

BUT IM NOT THE KIND WHO PHANATIC WITH WHAT I HAVE OKIES??

SO LONG KWN...

SO LONG LOVE..

HI TO RHU

HI TO BRO

HI TO NEW LIFE..

YANTO

A Sudden Change.

2008-04-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

I KNOW I CHANGED...

I KNOW IM NOW MORE DIFFERENT THEN BEFORE...

MARAH TK TENTU PASAL...

HAIS...

EVERYDAY GET INTO FIGHT...

STUPID FIGHTS....

HAIS..

LIFE2

WHAT HAPPEN TO ME??

I GONNA CHANGE FOR THE BETTER NOW...

TAKE CARE FRENS...

TAKE CARE OLD FREN I GONNA LEAVE ALL OF EU..

AND CHANGE...

I CANNOT STAY ROTTEN ALL THIS WHILE..

I WANNA CHANGE..

BUT CAN I???

YANTO

2.4.08

2008-04-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

That Fateful day/....

yansiow and me...

b4 coming down here we got bad feeling...

walao...

rabak siarh

guess wat i broke up with HER...

she treat me like a fool

but who care...

her way of live...

the Heartbreaker...

Maybe a Story For this kind of People??

oone day i made one..

hais

Failed again...

050208-020408.

dis date stay here and i will nvr remove to extend it ever again...

let time heal me cos i know...

im strong

i don nid her to live

mama here

baba

kakak

mir

haha

liya

eka

yansiow

ayedah*

and others...

hahaha

they here

rite??

stand by me Someone???

Yanto
That professional Pretenders

SICK2 TO THE MAX

2008-03-26T18:04:00.000+08:00

WALAO SICK SIARH..

3HARI STRAIGHT SIOT

DUDUK RUMAH MACAM APEK GULA2

HAHA

NOW IM FINE...

SIHAT WALAFIAT

ALLHAMDULILLAH

ESOK SKOOL FRIDAY JAMMING...

MUST GO CONTINUE THE SONG OH PUTERI..

HAHAHAHHA

HAPIE NAN HIDOP AKO...

HAPIE THE WAY I LIVE

COOL2 SUPER COOL

HAHAHA

YES I RETURN BACK TO MY PAST BUT IM GONNA FIX IT NOT CONDEMN IT..

COS MAMA ALWAYS SAY MANUSIA CAN CHANGE IT TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE...

I ADD IN A LITTLE BIT OF STRICTNESS OK???

HAHAHA

A BOTTLE OF TRUST...

A JAR OF FAITHFUL...

A SPOONFUL OF TIME..

AND A TEASPOON OF STRICT..

ALL TOGETHER MAKE ONE HAPPY COUPLE....

HEE.

DID I GOT THE RECIPE RIGHT...??

I HOPE THAT RECIPE WORK OUT WELL OK??

IF IT DID NT...

DEN MAKING A NEW TYPE OF CAKE I HAVE TO DO...

HEHEHE

YANTO..
THE LIVES OF THE SIMPLE AND RUGGED LYFE OF MINE

THE PROFESSIONAL PRETENDERS

2008-03-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

HAIZ wat a ylfe i had...

She back..

i don know why...

haiz...

Tk puas ke hancurkan hatiku...

she want me to kill mydelf???

haizz

girl...

eu know im still loving eu but eu juz a heartbreaker..

The professional pretenders,heartbreaker,attention seeker and hypocrite..

that what i can say bout eu..

changing??

good if eu are..

haiz...

Being loved by someone is a gift..

but for me..

haiz

god knows..

let juz hope moving on will help me 4get her ok??

Yanto
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and i still cannot 4get her

haiz...

2008-03-03T20:22:00.001+08:00

TODAE IS GREAT...

BCOS I DON KNOW WHY..

HAHAHAHA

BUT ONE THING FOR SURE IS THAT IM HAPPY NOW

FEELING OF LOVE BUT NOT READY FOR IT

FALLING FOR A NEW GERL BUT IM NOT READY...

IF I SAY I LOVE HER WOULD SHE SAY THE SAME THING??

IF I PROMISE HER IM DIFFERENT FROM OTHER GUY WILL SHE BELIEVE ME???

JUZ WAITING FOR THE TIME

OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUZ 4GET IT??

HAIZ

YANTO

MARCH HOLIDAY COMING

HAPPY SIARH...

YANTO

New Blog New lyfe

2008-02-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

Yup I Done New blog..

hahahahha

Moving on was fun..

Gerl i don Nid ur Pussy to Make my lyfe complete

Get A lyfe!!

haahahhahaha

Yanto2..

Stress now..

Cos I don know what to do or now being SINGLE or Move on with a better person..

SHE A HEARTBREAKER..

But Im gonna find My BETTER PERSON OF LYFE...

hahahaha

Yanto Still ALIVE EH..

I WON FALL DOWN BCOS OF EU!!!!

COS MOVING ON WAS GREAT..

YANTO'
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